Love Wins

Today is the 12th day of the month

Hi! its me again and i’m back. Today is a very special day for me, since me and my bimy are celebrating our 1st month together, Hooray for that! Bimy stands for Baby I aM Yours, Yes its kind of a cheesy endearment but i am the only one who knows why i call him that. Haha. Okay let’s get serious now.

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So as you can see, this is my boyfriend, my bimy. Just a few recap of how we started, well he is one of the most genuine person i know. We never really linked that much when we first met since i am not his type and he is a goodboy type of guy which was not my forte. I met him at work. He was a quiet, very serious and timid actually. I can see his not that social with others and very private.

I, on the other hand, has an extrovert personality. I am loud, very talkative and i socialized a lot about how my life is. As you can see we are the opposites, my personality sometimes doesn’t fit his. I know this because he never really talked to me in a very interested way before, but since i want to know him more, i gathered all the courage i have to pursue him. Yes, i have a big crush on him and i don’t know why. Haha.

Kidding aside, mainly because he was not like the most of the men i dated before. So to make the story short, we communicated and then we got to know each other and then came the day i profess my feelings for him. Whew, talk about being nervous and happy at the same time. I was not sure until the day i felt like its really different, how did i know? I felt like the walls he has in his life are slowly going down and he starts being open to me.

It may seem like a yey for me, but to my surprise i was rejected. yes, even girls got rejected. Ouch, it happened 3 times and to my luck all of them during the times he asked me out on a date. I felt bad, hurt and very confused because he told me he likes me but then he always end up saying that we should stay as friends. Maybe it was for the better, i guess. But it never ended there, we always got the chance to communicate and it’s like we deepened our relationship every time he rejected me. Is it because i stayed? or is it because he never really wanted it to end.

Each time he rejects me i prayed to God that for whatever reason he wants to end it, i know He knows why. Well i know the reasons why, but you know sometimes you just cannot accept it. Until the day he asked to court me,  i never expected it since all of the time he wanted us just to stay friends and now he is asking to court me. Of course i said yes. And i got the chance to express my love and my Yes (to be his girlfriend) on the 12th day of February 2016.

He thought we were just going on a pre-valentine date since we won’t be celebrating it together. And i gave him a surprised gift for my very special yes! Talk about effort, i mean ( ako talaga yung lalaki samin eh joke) hahaha. The last three photos on collage was that day. I saw his reaction, priceless. His smile, very genuine and happy. I look at him and i said to myself:

“Buti na lang di ka sumuko. Buti na lang pla every time na umaayaw sya di ka nawala. Every pain, every no and every tear was worth it. I got to meet the love of my life in a very unusual way. I am the luckiest girl, just to see my love so happy and being the 1st girl in his life and hopefully the last.”

Ans since that day, one month had passed. To my bimy, happy 1st month. I may not do this every month but since its our 1st i wanted to share how grateful i am for you. We may never be the same in terms of personality and likes, but at the end of the day we compromise. a very rocky start but a smooth finish it is. Whatever happens in our future i know God will always guide us. I love you Dear, no matter what.

A reminder to all of us, we may struggle with our life and relationship but at the end of the day, Love always has a way. It may be a lesson for us or a plan, who knows? Only God knows what is in store for us, we just have to wait and be surprised.

 

1 Corinthians 13

Love Is the Greatest

13 If I could speak all the languages of earth and of angels, but didn’t love others, I would only be a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I understood all of God’s secret plans and possessed all knowledge, and if I had such faith that I could move mountains, but didn’t love others, I would be nothing. If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it; but if I didn’t love others, I would have gained nothing.

Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

Prophecy and speaking in unknown languages[b] and special knowledge will become useless. But love will last forever! Now our knowledge is partial and incomplete, and even the gift of prophecy reveals only part of the whole picture! 10 But when the time of perfection comes, these partial things will become useless.

11 When I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child. But when I grew up, I put away childish things. 12 Now we see things imperfectly, like puzzling reflections in a mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity.[c] All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.

13 Three things will last forever—faith, hope, and love—and the greatest of these is love.

I hope i inspired you and made sense with my article. Bye!

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Random thoughts

 

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And yes i am back blogging and this time my topic would be:

All About Random Thoughts

Today i feel like sharing what i feel about having random thoughts. The reason behind it, hmm, let’s just say i wanna know if anyone else feels the same way as i am. What it feels like having questions and statements pop to your head suddenly out of nowhere. If i were given a chance to write all of them, it would be endless. Seems like some days when my mood changes i feel the thoughts rushing in.

Have you ever had these questions or statements:

  • “What will i do with my life now?”
  • “Am i satisfied with what i am doing right now?”
  • “I think its better when im alone.”
  • “Why does it feel like this? Am i the only one who understand myself?”

 

If yes, how do you feel whenever you think of it. I know there are a lot of mind boggling topics that are waiting to be discussed with thyself. Maybe all of this are just waiting to be answered or maybe these are the things we cannot dare to speak with others. We may feel judged or its just a waste of time so we keep it to ourselves. We may write it or just keep it in our head but what does it really mean?

For me, having random thoughts are like captions of how i am feeling on that moment. The way i feel happy with others, the way i cried because of something, or the way i got mad at someone, maybe those those thoughts or questions are the perfect caption of that perfect moment. It maybe good or bad, but the idea of thinking about it, it makes us human realize we are living the life, we took the spur of the moment to see whats there and gives ourselves something to think about. Living, seems like surviving most of the times, can really be tiring. And having theses thoughts forever embedded in our minds or wrote in a journal, reminds us of how we tried and live the life we are given.

 

Thank you for reading, i hope i made sense with my post. Haha but if not, forgive me, i tried really hard. Thank you, as always.

 

P.S To future self, if ever you may read this again i hope you got your questions answered and you are now living the life you have dreamed of, not surviving but really living. Xoxo.

 

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Recovered

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Someone very thoughtful gave me kisses this morning. I was not feeling A-okay to be exact because of you know what-girls-have-every-month-thing. And by that yes i mean i have my period. Haha. Its been a week since i was not feeling well. Since last week i was experiencing a major abdominal pain. I thought it was because i slept in an uncomfortable position but the pain was on going since Monday.

I even bought efficascent oil (menthol liniment for pains) and cotton balls so that i can ease the pain. It was quite effective for a short period of time and i need to reapply it often. I also bought meds because i thought i was too gassy that’s why i am experiencing the pain.

But finally when i woke up yesterday, i know the main cause of my sickness. Its because i was having my period. Tada! Brilliant isn’t it? Oh well, i know its kind of weird but everyone in our family experiences it (only women of course haha), before we have our period, we always got sick, colds, fever, cough etc. But i’m glad i am okay now, i think. Thank God!

PS. My boyfriend was the one who got me the chocolate. And my mom gave me kisses (real ones haha) before she left the house. Whose the happy kid? I am! This day couldn’t get any better.

 

Just an update. I will keep in touch i promise. 🙂

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It’s Not Enough That He’s a Christian

joenasandiego

I’m sorry but you read it right and I mean it.

It’s not enough that he’s a Christian.

Beloved, you need to hear the truth.

Repent

1. There’s a lot of nice Christian boys, but not a lot of Godly men.
You see, a lot of guys out there can easily serve in the ministry. You can spot them in church every Sunday. Hitting the drums so passionately and leading the worship in all its honor and glory. Yet, are these really the marks of a guy whose life is fully surrendered to Jesus Christ? Are you seeing him leading younger men towards a greater encounter with the Lord? Are his words a reflection of God’s grace or better yet, do you feel God’s grace every time you talk to Him? Does he spend more time reading his bible rather than being cozy in the comfort of late night fellowships? Does he…

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Kid again

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Time flies so fast

When i was a kid, my favorite ride was the carousel. I don’t know but there is something about this ride that makes me feel magical. I dreamed of being a princess, having my own castle, riding my carriage and of course marrying a prince. Maybe that is why i enjoy riding it, because i feel like a princess every time.

I can remember how life was so simple back then, how one ride can make me feel magical. I can remember how i saw things differently as a kid, and it glimpses back as i saw the carousel again. Maybe i was reminded that every time i feel complicated or in difficult times, i should switch my point of view into a child’s perspective. Look how fascinated kid’s are with everything in their surrounding. I should be more appreciative and live the moment as each one pass by, because time cannot turn back, we only have one life we can live to the fullest. I do wish i was princess though, how happy could that make me feel? but i know i am a princess not by wealth but by being His child 🙂

I will try to think of more things that will remind me of my childhood, i hope you do too.

 

Lots of love,

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